You can call me… Ganymede
I identify as… A lesbian, I’m in a monogamous relationship with a girl, but I do appreciate beauty in all packages.
As far as third-person pronouns go, … Definitely ‘she’, but recently I’m so infected with genderfuck, androgyny, drag kings and ‘boi’s, it’s under my skin, I lie awake at night trying to split the atoms of my passion into the ‘want’ and ‘want to be’ categories, that so many others on here have mentioned.
If I could choose every morning whether I wanted to be a boi or a girl today that would be my idea of true freedom.
I’m attracted to… Butch, boi’s. I need a girl to be a man. Do other girls find they get criticised for this? Mostly by straight people but also lesbians. ‘If you want masculine, go out with a guy’. Isn’t there something so much more erotic about a woman making a better man than a man?
When people talk about me, I want them to… Say I’m brave about my sexuality, maybe that I’ve made it a little easier to be a gay girl in our small town by wearing my heart on my sleeve. I hope this is the case.
I want people to understand… That wardrobe can be fluid, that although it may concern the individual deeply, does what we wear concern anyone else? I’m proud and envious of my sisters who are brave enough to wear what they want in the face of ‘tranny’ stigma.
I guess I’ve got my own issues there, fear of people’s reactions obviously, but maybe the real reason I don’t wear boys’ clothes because I know clothes have power to change how we feel, right into the dark middle of us, and that it could send me falling into deep hole of gender confusion, like Alice tumbling down the rabbit-hole…