Get to thinking…
Someone wrote…
I am growing up to be a person I can admire but I am still so confused with who I see in the mirror. I either need to cover all the mirrors or get to thinking…
What’s your experience?
Posted by julian on May 12th, 2010 at 08:00 am
Category: your voice 4 comments »
May 12th, 2010 at 4:23 pm |
I feel the same way some days.
I sometimes think it would be nice if we could get rid of all the mirrors, to remove the temptation of looking in them and unconsciously trying to label ourselves.
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May 12th, 2010 at 6:47 pm |
Oh, I know. I hate to feel all shallow, but when I’m having a bad hair day and I look unusually masculine, I can’t stop thinking about it :(
But I know what you mean. In fact, I feel awesome about myself, and that makes me happy! It’s just the voice in my mouth and the body in the mirror that’s the issue.
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May 14th, 2010 at 11:33 pm |
And it doesn’t stop happening. It’s like Acne. When I was 15, they told me, hey, your face will clear up and you’ll never have a problem in just a few years. Bullshit. I had pimples when I was 40. Was I just lucky? It must have happened to someone else.
So, don’t expect that one way you’d wake up and the clouds will roll away and the sun will come out and everything will be clear and better and over and done with… not until you die and maybe not even then.
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May 15th, 2010 at 12:54 pm |
This has been very much my experience, for me a sort of inexplicable, unexplainable dissonance.
As a small child I sort of had this deep down feeling that, for example, my breasts would grow when I grew up. But then during puberty it didn’t happen – because my body was the body of a little boy. Being a very late bloomer, this realization that I wouldn’t grow up to be like my Mother or Aunts or teachers happened late for me which made it even harder. I had nothing to hang those feelings on, and it wasn’t until many years later that I finally was able to begin to allow myself to get my head and heart around this.
What a wonderful relief when I feel congruence!
… it’s like a spring flowing up through me, leaving me feeling so peaceful and clean…
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