The Only Time
Someone wrote…
No matter how I attempt to present myself, I always feel like a liar to some degree. Nothing ever seems close enough to my identity to not make me feel deceptive in some way. The only time I feel that I am myself is when I’m not thinking about my gender at all.
What’s your experience?
Posted by Freiya on April 24th, 2012 at 08:00 am
Category: your voice 3 comments »
April 24th, 2012 at 8:15 am |
I know the feeling. I think sometimes you have to ‘fake it until you make it’. When you are still experimenting with presenting in different ways it is hard not to be self-concious. Just be yourself and push through the discomfort, eventually you will find the right balance. That’s my experience, anyways.
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April 25th, 2012 at 12:15 pm |
I feel uncomfortable making other people uncomfortable. It’s like walking into a room where two people are having sex. It is embarrassing and makes me want to be in some other place. Not because there is anything wrong with sex, but because I feel like I am intruding on something that should be private. In the case of gender, my gender is a private thing, not a performance piece, and when other people take ownership of the moment, I feel disenfranchised somehow.
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April 26th, 2012 at 6:29 pm |
Remember the words of Shakespeare in Hamlet: “This above all: to thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.”
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