Within Myself

Someone wrote…

I was born in a female body and it doesn’t feel like my true form. I feel as if I’m in drag when I wear make-up or a dress or anything girly, and I’ve tried and tried to feel within myself whether I’d be more comfortable as a man but this isn’t me either. I’ve felt confused about this for decades, and feel so sad that I haven’t SEEN myself reflected in the world. I haven’t had the name words or the examples of other people to tell my loved ones how I feel except to say ‘I feel like a man in drag in this.’

What’s your experience?

And what are you thinking about gender right now?

Posted by on June 3rd, 2012 at 08:00 am

Category: your voice 2 comments »

2 Responses to “Within Myself”

  1. Als

    I hear you. I bought a genderqueer pride pin recently, and what I feel it represents is my growing confidence in not knowing what I am. I’m female-bodied and don’t want to transition, but the only way I can express what I am to other people is to say “I don’t know”. I wish there was a better way.


  2. Lane

    I know! To say ‘somewhere in the middle’, ‘a dude with a girl body’ or ‘both’ is semi-accurate for me, but to attempt to explain something that is so personal and so unique to you, it could be hard to find a description that fits accurately. Who we are and what They see may not always appear to match up- if it bothers anyone that’s their problem. You are just who you are, and that is an awesome individual; culture will try to define you but ultimately, the way you express/present and live may in fact *define culture* in a great new direction…so keep being you no matter how you explain it, if you must explain at all:)


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