Someone wrote…

I might finally be able to start T, even though I’ll probably have to pay out of pocket for it.

But it slowly hit me that whatever college I transfer to might not cover hormones, and I’m afraid it’ll lead to me detransitioning hormonally. I’m not really sure what to do, and I haven’t even started HRT yet.

What’s your experience?

And what are you thinking about gender right now?

Posted by on July 19th, 2013 at 08:00 am

Category: your voice 5 comments »

5 Responses to “College”

  1. Andy

    I’ve stopped and started T many times. The physiological effects will mostly stay in place – I find that my facial hair thinned out a little when I stopped taking it, but in general the lower voice/increased hairiness/muscles will stay pretty much the same. It could be worth taking it while you can afford it if you know that you’ll have to stop at certain points. The only thing that will return 100% is menstruation (and the ability to get pregnant)

    Be sure not to go over your dosage for at the very minimum the first year – your body needs to get acclimatized to the T, otherwise it will convert it to estrogen and your boobs will get bigger and it will give you other not-fun side effects which will go against what you want it to do.


    Deven replied:

    I didn’t know the muscle I gained would stay, that makes me a lot less anxious. And I knew that too high a dosage would convert to estrogen.
    But I was wondering, other than sharkweek, did you go through any mood swings during your breaks? Is it common to feel down during that time, or do you think it depends on the person?


    Andy replied:

    For the most part it will – testosterone removes the thin layer of subcutaneous fat that makes girls look a bit softer and less angular, and helps build muscles easily. The former will fade if you stop, but the latter will stick around. If you’re active or spend time being active while on T, the muscles you gain will remain pretty much the same (I’d say within 95% of their original size) but you may slowly get your subcutaneous fat layer back. It’ll make things like your veins in your hands and arms stand out a little less, but overall you will be more masculinized than you were before by far.

    I definitely noticed a calming down of my emotional reactivity when I started taking testosterone the first time, but in the subsequent times I didn’t notice any major swings, either while starting or stopping. I think that this is a mental state thing that the hormones can impact but don’t dictate, and I feel like T just taught me how to keep a more even keel in general, regardless of when I was on it or not. Other people might have a different perspective on this because I started on 12/100ths of a ml per week which is about half of the recommended start dose of 25. I did this because I was feeling pretty ungrounded in my body and didn’t want to change things too suddenly. I would say that you might just end up feeling down when you’re not on it simply because T does give you a bit of extra pep and energy, and if you want to transition, not being able to kinda sucks and you might feel down about that. Having a good support system in place is important – the trans health organizations in my neck of the woods have done *amazing* things for me. It is really worth going out there and sharing your struggle and seeing if anyone is able to help you – sometimes organizations will fund you to see docs to get gender assessments, or you could end up meeting a sponsor who will pay for your HRT, etc. It is a pretty generous world out there – if you put positive energy in, you will get more than you dreamed of out of it.


  2. Deven

    Thanks Andy.


  3. *Mrcoyboi**

    thnx that\s helpfull !!


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