My New Years resolution was to go on this mental, physical and emotional journey to find myself and to find my place in the world, to find meaning and to figure out how to be proud of my transgenderness rather than afraid of it.
It’s taken me a year and five months to get to this stage in the acceptance process, a year where I’ve let this identity cripple me until I found myself in this massive hole that I had no idea how to climb out of. A couple months ago I decided to just try. I’ve decided to dip a toe into the community I’ve been terrified to acknowledge for so long, to tell people, and to ask for help.
It’s taken me until now to realize that I’m more or less out of the hole. I still have a little walking to do, but I can finally see a future for myself, I can see happiness and meaning.
What’s your experience?