I feel lost between male and neutral and femme. The body I have is beautiful, but I don’t want it.
I need to perform gender, but no one understands what I’m saying. I need to make art about it. I need to show person after person until someone catches a glimpse. And then I’ll cook them their favorite dinner and we’ll cuddle till dawn. I want to be art. I want to make this horrible body, beautiful with curves enough to make a continent in the shape of my body, into something wonderful. I want to show the maleness of my breasts and the femaleness of my muscles.
What’s your experience?