Someone wrote…

I was shopping for clothes and decided to try something more “dapper”. I tried a shirt that fitted me just perfectly, which is kinda hard to happen when one possesses a nice ‘n’ round belly, as well as a prominent pair of boobs, along with an hourglass-shaped body.

I felt amazing and gorgeous. It seemed that nothing in the world would look as good in my body like that shirt. It was pricey, but I thought it would be worth it…

At home, I put the shirt on again. It looked SO different this time! I still felt great about the way the shirt fitted my body, but in my mirror I found myself “too masculine”. It saddened me, as it seemed like I’ve made a bad deal – paid a lot of money for something that would make me “ugly” (I don’t know why I still feel this way when I present less feminine). Then my girlfriend told me “I looked like a guy, but in a nice way”, that I was beautifully butch-y. So I played with it a bit, wore a suit and tie, and it felt like fun again.

I don’t know how is it gonna be when I try to wear it again, outside the comfort of my room. But I decided that every time I start to overthink, I’ll try to ignore those oh-you-look-too-masculine thoughts and focus on how I felt in that shirt in the first time.

What’s your experience?

And what are you thinking about gender right now?