Last week I’ve started identifying myself as genderqueer, though it will take some more time for me to “come out” with my family and friends.
I’ve just realized that it took me almost my whole life to learn to listen to my “real self.”
Even as a kid, I didn’t understand how to behave, how I could possibly be and express myself – since I didn’t feel neither like a man, nor like a woman, I couldn’t pick any gender. I was stuck and gave myself up in order to survive.
Now I know I don’t have to choose if I don’t want to.
Although I’m sure I’ve made the right decision (if being the way you are can be seen as a decision), I’m ridiculously scared all the time. I’m scared of ending up losing the ones I love. I’m scared people won’t accept me or take me seriously. My partner knows what’s going on and has been incredibly understanding this whole time. Nevertheless, I’m terrified.
Shouldn’t finally getting to know yourself a little more liberating?
What’s your experience?