I have found myself thinking about gender a lot lately. Over the past few years I have gradually eschewed certain things that I once saw as a part of growing up. Shaving, bras and make up are things I looked forward to with earnest, but now don’t fit with my gender. Binding is something I have wanted to do for so long — and I have tried the two sports bra thing — but it is bloody uncomfortable and restricts what shirts I wear.
I am not cis — but I don’t feel genderqueer or androgynous enough to identify otherwise. I get read as female which is okay but sometimes I would like to be read as male or not read at all.
Sometimes it feels like this is all in my head and I’m simply spending too much time thinking about gender. But I know I am not cis.
I feel only the most infinitesimal dysphoria but having a flat chest would please me.
Maybe I should eschew labels and just identify as me.
What’s your experience?