It’s too hard to be a man. I always pictured freedom, and androgynous expression, essential things for me to be satisfied with who I am and how I consider myself good-looking.
Now my being male works against these two, as i’m a trans male in a non accepting country and environment, my gender therapists are not helpful and my family is pressing, combined with the suffering that my body brings me.
I just want my wings back. I’m somewhat afraid, and quiet and still.
I picture the beauty my society has forbidden me.
What’s your experience?