I just want my wings back.

Someone wrote…

I’m disappointed.

It’s too hard to be a man. I always pictured freedom, and androgynous expression, essential things for me to be satisfied with who I am and how I consider myself good-looking.

Now my being male works against these two, as i’m a trans male in a non accepting country and environment, my gender therapists are not helpful and my family is pressing, combined with the suffering that my body brings me.

I just want my wings back. I’m somewhat afraid, and quiet and still.

I picture the beauty my society has forbidden me.

What’s your experience?

And what are you thinking about gender right now?

Posted by on February 8th, 2014 at 08:00 am

Category: your voice 3 comments »

3 Responses to “I just want my wings back.”

  1. CHH

    Sorry to hear that. Maybe you can find a space of friends or likeminded where you can be yourself, at least temporarily? Best wishes for you.


  2. Anonymous

    I have felt a bit like this in times past. I always hang on to the knowledge that I will always have those wings in my mind, if I allow myself to. It’s not the same as outward acceptance, but it’s gotten me through hard times. Maybe that doesn’t help you, but just know that you are not alone. I hate for you that you feel so confined, and I hope you find space to fly in the future.


  3. Elle

    If you allow them
    they will steal the dream of wings
    and leave you nothing.


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