Stream of Consciousness

Someone wrote…

Today was weird.

See, I’m transmasculine agender, and I prefer he/him pronouns. Most of my friends know this, but because I’m not public, they don’t use my pronouns. They do however use my name, Gray, because it sounds like a nickname of the awful ‘dead’ name that most people still use for me.

I was supposed to come out on Coming Out Day to my family, because I can’t deal with being in the closet anymore, it’s driving me crazy with despair. However, I chickened out last minute and so they still don’t know.

Today was pretty bad because none of my friends were around at school and so no-one for the entire day used my name, which made me sad.

I’m still sad about it, and one of my close friends consistently screws up and uses my ‘dead’ name, and I know she tries but, she’s known for ages, and we all correct her. But sometimes it feels like she thinks I, going to grow out of it.

So yeah, that’s my stream of consciousness.

What’s your experience?

And what are you thinking about gender right now?

Posted by on November 18th, 2015 at 08:00 am

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