It feels silly to be scared by not knowing who I am. But I can’t even give myself the space to figure it out. I’m a freshman at uni, I have gay friends, I’m out to most of them about my sexuality and this is probably THE best place to be when I’m trying to figure out how I identify. But I won’t even let myself think about it too much.
Maybe because if I ever do figure it out, I’ll have to act on it. And I don’t know if I can.
(I just want to walk into a room and say “hi. call me jack” and have people do it. But I didn’t have the courage to do it when I got here and now I’m afraid it’s too late)
What’s your experience?