Something missing
Someone wrote…
I’m a girl, and one which society would view as a “typical” (not my favourite choice of word) one. I like wearing pretty clothes, having my hair long, wearing make-up, etc. However, even more than that I have this burning wish to be a man.
To make this more complicated, I wish to be a man because I would LOVE to be a female drag-act, or something similar. I love the male voice, the possible fluctuation between male and female body, the confidence and sparkle that they may have. I also like dressing as a “typical” man, but as a short, curvy woman I can’t pull it off very well, and this irritates me. I’ve tried sparkle, deepening my voice, wigs… but it feels like I’m a fake, and I’ll never truly hit what I want. Yet, equally, I’ve accepted being a woman and I mostly like the way I am. For example, my friend is a female to male trans person, and I know that I’m not the same.
It’s very confusing and annoying if I think about it too much, and I tend to think about it a lot. I know it sounds like a joke, but it genuinely feels like something is missing. Anyone else have a similar story?
What’s your experience?
Category: your voice 3 comments »
December 13th, 2014 at 7:18 pm |
Yeah I get this. I’m not sure where I land, but it’s something like that. I don’t think it’s a joke (though I’m like, shouldn’t I just be happy as a girl, but nope you are who you are there’s nothing selfish about it). :). Go with what you love.
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December 14th, 2014 at 7:50 am |
Have you heard of faux queens?
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December 30th, 2014 at 9:03 am |
Yes. I get it. I am also a short curvy female assigned person who struggles with this. One day I realized I identified most asthetically with very femme queer men. But I cannot create this expression for myself. Also some days i do truely love this curvy body. I am coming to love that I am just very genderfluid amd must love myself through each contradicting moment of it.
Also, have u heard of bio queens?
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